Sadly, I had to revert to my old theme. For now. There are too many things Depo Square can’t do for me in this moment. We might be get back together in the future.
Thanks for your thoughts though as I consider my evolution.
On another note, I have 85 days left in my positivity challenge and suddenly I’m on shaky ground. I fact, I think I almost fell of the wagon. Why? It’s hard to say. I woke up this morning in a funny/fragile (I told you I was fragile!) mood and very nearly plummeted into my old patterns of melancholy and woe-is-me-because-i’m-not-reese-witherspoon-or-something. But I battled. In fact my mother asked me if I was okay, to which I replied, “Just battling.” I sat in the living room while Elsie did her morning laps of the first floor and forced myself out of that dark hole.
I will probably be battling for the rest of day too.
I think it has something to do with Simon leaving the house and me staying within its four walls.
Um.
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Love the image of her doing laps and I admire your waging this battle – I’m inspired.
I feel for the girl who says um.
You are so strong, when the day weighs, we too feel the weight also. I encourage you for as an example to keep the movement only going forward.
I too feel the need to bow to pressure, money is tight, freedom has become boredom and my fruitful goals have attracted fruit flies. My own sabbatical of discovery is causing a very deep sense of guilt and unworthiness to creep in. Thank God that my love, that is my friend who is also my wife, still encourages me to find happiness. And I believe yours does also. I will pray for you if you do the same for me.
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